Lovee this cover and song!
I’m getting my passion back into singing again, thanks to you. I’m happy that this a new start, yet, the memories are catered in my heart so much. For now, this is better than nothing. I still feel the same and I know that I will for a long while. Sitting here remembering these songs I sang to you makes me remember who myself was about 2 years ago, I had the best passion for jotting down lyrics and singing it out to you and I barely even knew you, but you gave me that comfort and motivation to keep going. Like you still do now, my heart just rushes every song I sing because it brings me back so much. Right now, I feel that I had the most passion for it then I did back then. Although my voice gets off from singing too much tho, lol. I’m fine with it tho, music and motivation keeps me going.
This feeling has to be the worst I have ever felt. What was I thinking, why couldn’t I have just pushed it all aside. Why did I have to realize now? The misunderstanding and miscommunication got the grudge side out of me. Things have never been this terrible. I didn’t know you were so unhappy, just seeing you so unhappy looking at me with no emotion, really shocked me with me just being completely speechless. What you did the other night, also did, its really not like you. And having me be the cause of it just makes me not wanto look at myself. We all say things we don’t mean, what I said, was a mistake. I want you to know that it was not what my heart was telling me. It was the cause of assumptions and too much thinking. I guess I was just.jealous that you had so much going on and I had nothing really. Everything I said, it was not coming from my heart. My mind just lost it and wasn’t corporating on what I truly felt. I want you to know that you never hurted me, you were nothing but good to me. And you still always will be. You were exactly right, I was just hurting myself. I was all on my own. I took the time to think about it and its true, believe me when I say this. No, I’m not bringing myself down right now, I’m saying this because I can’t ever believe how much time to actually get it through my head. We both have been stressed and out of our heads for awhile that it was making us have these. Especially you, I’m sorry I didn’t know how stressed out you were, I was being stubborn but I now know. I will focus on doing my thing right now, but I just want you to know that its hard to focus on one thing when you cant stop thinking about someone that makes you the happiest. I am focused like I have been since last year because of you and me together. Don’t say that it has been me, no, you have helped me and gave me the motivation to become a better person and be more reliable. Look, I know you need your time to breathe and do what you need to do, me too, but I always put the time to talk to you to make my day and share a laugh. Just promise that when you are having this time, do not think negatively. About anything, especially of us. Like you said, we have nothing to worry about. I’m being positive for us and I will be because the promises have stayed with me til day one. I care about you, I’m staying strong on the outside of me and being positive, but this is killing me inside, I’m trying to deal with it, and I have been because I understand, but I don’t want this long, I hope you don’t either. Just please believe that this won’t happen anymore, believe that things will soon get better if you try, there is happiness in you, I’m looking forward on seeing it. <3 God gives me strength and hope everyday to believe in anything. I love you so much.
There is a reason for everything that comes up. Every situation that you just can’t handle, there’s a reason. God is trying to make me stronger and sometimes, I gotta learn the hard way.
We remember things that is or once was in our best interest but we’ll always come to forget those that never really mattered. You know you cared if you remember. It isn’t always about trying to forget bad memories but realizing the good that came along with it.
I gotta admit, yes, I can be.stubborn but most of the time I’m not. I’m going to use friends for an example. When I think about someone and miss hanging out, I tell them. Or I text.and have a conversation with the.person. I don’t do that because I’m bored like most people, I truly mean it. The thing is I am most of the time the one to make the first move, I notice it a lot now. I try to be a good friend, and I really do know I am. It sucks that I feel like I’m trying too much tho. Not good because I start to distance myself often. Its alright tho, I don’t make it a bother so much cause ima just do meee feel me?
